Indignant means a feeling characterized by, or expressing strong displeasure at something considered unjust, offensive, insulting, or base.
This morning we had Peter and Christine Darg who founded Exploits Ministry (www.exploits.tv) as guest speakers at our Monday morning all-staff chapel. At the end of their message they gave an invitation for people who needs prayer. I wanted to be prayed for with the purpose of hearing from the Lord on my health issues.
After probably more or less 30 people who lined up, there was I right beside another guy whom Christine was praying for. I felt that we both had health issues. Because of my proximity, I was able to overhear Christine’s conversation (I did not hear what the other guy asked for BTW). During that time, her words to the other guy was already ministering to me.
When it was my turn, I told her that basically, I am having some health issues just like the guy before me. I told Christine that I was already blessed by her “advise” that I have unwittingly overheard.
A few things that she asked the guy was if he had any issues with the Lord that may be hindering the answers to his prayers or may be making it difficult to come to the Lord. I quickly remembered that when we regard iniquity in our heart (Ps. 66:18) the Lord will not listen. Bingo!
I quickly checked my heart and yes, there are things, sin, that I may have cherished in my heart and have not confessed to the Lord that may be hindering my prayers. Point taken.
Next, Christine, told the guy if he had a scripture that he is holding on to for his healing. I think he did not have one. But I had a verse in my heart that Jesus gave me during my hours of distress. I actually have two. The first one is John 6:63. The New Living Translations says it like this: “The Spirit alone gives eternal life. Human effort accomplishes nothing. And the very words I have spoken to you are spirit and life.” The second one is the whole chapter of Psalm 91, particularly verse 3 which says, “For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from the deadly disease.”
Christine told the guy to pray for a word in the Bible to hold on to and claim victory. And then she turned to me.
I was already happy during that moment. I shared to her how I felt and how already blessed I was. But I still told her what bothered me and told me one last thing. I need to be indignant of the devil. I need to be forceful against him. If I had God’s words then the only thing I need to do then was to shove it to the enemy’s face.
You see, he’s been giving me anxiety attacks. For most parts of the latter half of 2009 up to mid 2010, I was struggling with my anxiety. I was also partly to blame because I kept on reading from the Internet so many things about my health concern. Because of what I was reading, I was getting fearful and anxious.
And that was the time Jesus rescued me by His word. All the negative thoughts were getting into me and I know that I can only turn to my Bible for comfort. And assurance. And strength. All the medical sites on the internet only fueled my fears and kept me anxious. I was having sleepless nights.
Then God gave me 2 Corinthians 10: 5, which says, “We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”
All my anxious thoughts went through my mind, injected by the devil. I started quoting those Scripture for many nights, when anxiety was creeping in. I am saying it again as I write this, and slowly, I was able to confront my anxious thoughts and be free of it. Praise God!
But then, the war is not yet over. I still had spiritual battles to face. I still have attacks. But the blood of the Lamb, Jesus, has given me the victory. I will believe the word of the Lord rather than the report of the world! I am believing that by Jesus’s strifes, I am healed. It was declared to us again this morning as God has said to me long ago. The devil can’t deny that.